Catch-Up II

by Jay on August 29, 2014

I can’t believe it’s been over three years since I wrote a post on this blog. I started this blog because I was caught up in a very difficult and soul crushing job, and I appreciated having the outlet for creativity that this blog gave me, as well as some occasional interaction with like-minded or sympathetic people that I didn’t know. But then I quit the awful job and started an internet business, which I have absolutely loved, and have been quite successful at. And I let go of the need to blog.

Life has been good. I am still in Brooklyn, New York, with my partner M. I’m selling all kinds of products on Amazon now, both wholesale, and stuff that I find in stores on clearance. I have time to travel, to learn new things, to wander around the city, all the things I wanted to do before but was too busy. The only thing I can’t figure out now is why it took me so long to jump ship and start on my own. Maybe a lack of confidence? Well, 2011 was still a scary time, so close to the recession and all. But I have to say, I’ve never regretted my decision. I’m making twice as much money now as I was then, and I am working half as hard.

My financial situation is better. The mortgage payment on the condominium that I bought eats up a good chunk of my earnings, but the value of my condominium has almost doubled. I’m even thinking about selling it and buying a house with the profits in a cheaper part of the country so that I can eliminate the mortgage payment from my life. Not quite yet, as I am not ready to leave the city, and M. is still working. But I feel the time will come in the next year or two. As I wrote above, I have doubled my income since starting my own business, and I have a lot of ideas to grow it even more. I am able to write many expenses off as business expenses, so this helps too.

My weight hasn’t improved much, which is strange, as I have completely given up drinking. I stopped a couple years ago to lose weight. The weight never came off, but I lost the desire for alcohol. I love my clear-headed evenings spent working through new business ideas, or building new systems for my business. There is something deeply satisfying to me about working for myself, knowing that my efforts aren’t going to make someone else rich. I consider myself very fortunate to have come to this point.

And I have time to blog again. I don’t know why I’ve been so negligent about blogging. This was a good place to hold myself accountable for certain types of behaviors, and to point myself in a direction of improvement. I did have fun reading over some of my older blogs. And I’m glad to say, I have made a lot of improvements.

Most of all, I miss this blog as a place to have a conversation with myself. My thinking has changed a great deal over the past three years. If I were to use one word to describe myself in 2011, it would be “frustrated.” And my writing resonated with that frustration. It was like I had seen a world of entrepreneurship and self-fulfillment that I liked, that I wanted to join, but I was stuck in an awful job during a deep recession with debt and a mortgage holding me down. My life was filled with complications, complexity and obstacles. There was very little peace. But finally I took action and made changes. I quit the job, and am succeeding with my business. I feel far more fulfilled in my life than I did three years ago. So my conversation with myself will be different. But still necessary and interesting.

I think it’s time to give this blog a go again.

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